bloody feeling

This morning was very hectic....I had to do 2 things almost at the same time. 1st was to get the car to Paya Lebar for servicing and the 2nd is the Musollah Cleanup. Well, woke up ard 7-15 and by 8 was already on the way to Paya Lebar. Talked to the mechanic and after a quick check, told me that the brakes needs replacement immediately which would take about an hour to fix besides the normal engine servicing. $$ was also a problem...1st thing that hit me was the musollah cleanup, I knew I would be late so I called Mus to replace me while I'm gone since I was the IC...Then another thing pressured me, more cars started to stream in and since my car needed more then engine servicing, all of them had to wait....All the drivers were like looking at me and I could easily read watz on their mind which was for me to move my stupid car out of the way to make up for their newer more ex cars zZz...After everything was done, I had another pathetic problem. All those cars that were in the Q had to reverse back to make way for my exit out...Took a deep breath and made my way out slowly not even daring to look out and quickly sped off!

Reached school around 10.30 and just parked my car jus outside the musollah lift...To my dismay, the musollahs in engineering had all disappeared and I felt terribly bad for the bros that went all the way there...Not wanting to make matters worst, I went to check on the girls...alhamdullilah they were fine...The event ran quite smoothly all the way to the debrief,this was where things was nt quite ok...Got feedback that the event was organized too last min and due to this,many were unable to come. I felt personally bad for being ill-prepared for this and for being late! That is when this stupid feeling came. It happen before but when it does, I seriously hate it..Well it did.Haiz...

Now back home, I'm still grimmicing with this feeling and itz hurting my mood. MP is next and that also is not bringing any cheer to my mood since my grp did a very bad mistake. Have to answer for it on monday dang!

6 more days and thinking back, I am still far from achieving what I want and is close to giving it up once and for all....